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Monday, January 4th, 2010
10:18 am - Facebook
I've not posted much here, or on MySpace lately. I just wanted my friends here to be aware that I've been using Facebook mostly for my little life updates and memes. I hope I can reconnect with some of you there!

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Tuesday, October 14th, 2008
4:29 pm - Even metros get the blues...
I miss politically incorrect commercials. Well, I miss being politically incorrect in general. ;)

I was reminded of one such commercial the other day when one of my patients with Parkinsonian tremors (for ex: hands/arms etc shaking when reaching for something) was holding out his glass for me to dump in the Metamucil packet.... and I think I got about half of it actually in the glass... at any rate - there was a chocolate milk commercial that ran serial ads on people coming up with inventive ways to shake their milk... I'm pretty sure one of them featured a guy handing his chocolate milk to his old shaky grandpa to shake it up for him. lOLz.

On a less humorous note, my fasting sugars first thing in the am have been in the 140s-160s. That's not even pre-diabetic, that's full blown "go see a doctor" time. Thing is, the sugars drop through the day as I eat and am more active, down to the 100s-120s. Sparing you much drama about having no health insurance and a probable new diabetes diagnosis, basically I'm covered now.

Oya - avoid Maxim Staffing for your temp/nursing/clerical/nurse aide jobs if you can help it, for many many reasons. Bastages took over 2 months to get my direct deposit going, blaming the bank, then telling me "oh - can you give us another voided check?" They also didn't take care of obtaining a parking permit for me until a week or 2 ago, they instead reimbursed me for paying 10-15 bucks a day out of pocket.(I started in July). Also also also, this was the first agency I've worked for that didn't have day 1 insurance/benefits. In addition to not giving benefits day 1(you have to work for them a certain timeframe or # of hours), they neglected to make me aware of my window of opportunity to enroll(which was the during the month of September). The corp benefits dept basically told me that even though it was the local offices' fault, that I was S.O.O.L... Well, after raising much hell, the local office is going to reimburse whatever policy I seek independently. Fortunately, I was able to get on the fiancee's benefits (yay for progressive domestic partner benefits!)

At any rate - one more shift tomorrow, then a well-deserved hiatus from work for 10 days... then back to the grind here at OSU. It's not bad. Hey, at least I can blog from work. ;)

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Saturday, September 20th, 2008
1:41 pm
"I'd better go take care of my little nun, or there'll be hell to pay."

I kill me.

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Thursday, July 3rd, 2008
3:41 pm - woot!
I interviewed for and got the travel assignment I wanted at the OSU James Cancer Center. 11 bucks more per hour than my recent travel gig, but no housing subsidy. It balances out to being about the same, perhaps a little more. It's also got a much better nurse to patient ratio (1:4 typically). I'm really looking forward to it. It will definitely help build the resume, more oncological/surgical exp. It starts July 21st, nearly 5 weeks after ending my assignment at Mt Carmel West. Glad I stashed up some cash to get me through.

I did splurge a little this past week, though... I bought myself a Playstation 3 - the 80GB Metal Gear Solid 4 bundle with the dualshock sixxaxxis(sp?) controller. Playing Heavenly Sword was fun - especially the archery based missions - you can hit a button to slo-mo and guide the arrows in to the target by angling/leaning the controlers, much like the Nintendo Wii. I also bought a TON of PS2 games. I really missed Final Fantasy X, which I never finished due to a small accident on the part of my nephew overwriting my saved game 3/4 the way through.

Yesterday I went with Bethaney and an Outland friend of hers named Joe to the Ohio Peace Officer's Training Academy. We got drunk for the cops-to-be and were breathalyzed and run through a battery of sobriety tests. Yay for free booze.

current mood: content

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Wednesday, June 25th, 2008
12:06 am - Wow...
9 months since my last musing?
You'd think that with my propensity for brooding I'd be living in a blog, but I've been really horrible about keeping the journal updated. LJ is my one and only true *journal*, I just keep the MySpace page around for contacts/keeping in touch. At any rate, a recap of the past 9 months or so(long post ahead, I'll have to review how to do a cut tag at some point):

I've still been here in Columbus, and until a couple of weeks ago, was working at Mount Carmel West as a travel nurse. A 3 month contract ended up having several extensions through May...We were living with the Marlin, then agency sponsored housing in New Albany til May, then we moved to Reynoldsburg on a somewhat-shortened 9 month lease.

Trish and I just spent the past week and a half in Springfield to catch up with friends and her family. It was and always is good to see the jbear(who needs to stop fucking losing weight already - you've proved your point! ;)). While we were there we went to Silver Dollar City. The water log ride was fun enough, but it was pretty embarrassing to not fit in most of the rides.

On that note, a month or so back I went to an information/education meeting on gastric bypass. I can get on Trish's insurance, and it covers it. Thing is, I don't want it. I want to do it myself. 350 is a lot of weight to carry around on your back, knees, and ankles. I know it's affecting my energy and patience, my relationships, and how well I tolerate work.

Trish is back at work at Chase, and I'm looking for work that doesn't involve floor nursing, yet doesn't suck when it comes to pay. There are no 12 hour day travel nursing positions currently open in the area anyway.

It's been pretty much decided that too much time is being spent on MMOs, and behind the computer in general. Yeah, I know, big revelation. Captain Obvious coming atcha. I'm glad that my newest games aren't absorbing me as much... I enjoy Age of Conan, but it's not the addictive obsession that Everquest, EQ2, EVE and WoW were. 9 years of MMO gaming. That's a lot of hours being stagnant.

Other news... Oya:
Mom burned down the house a month or so ago. Not intentionally of course, she dumped an ashtray with (apparently) lit embers in the plastic trash can in the computer room. 5 minutes and the place was toast. It's currently being completely rebuilt from the remaining studs on up. It'll be 4-6 months before mom and dad and Isaac have a place again.

Rachel got married last month. Her and Eric seem to be holding up ok.

Granny, now at..82? was hospitalized a couple of months ago and placed on a ventilator, and eventually a tracheostomy was placed... this is a woman who's hardly spent a day in the hospital in her life. apparently she had endocarditis - about 600ml of pus around her heart. She had a viral type infection with flu like symptoms for several weeks. She's extremely stubborn. I'm glad that dad and I pressed her to go in to the ER a second time(as if the first time weren't like pulling teeth :P). It's been one of those times I've been glad to be an RN - the family and friends would often hit me up with questions and terms, and I'd ease their fears and give them a 'lay' perspective. While she's off the ventilator and the trach has been removed, she still has minimal strength and use of her arms and legs from being sedated and bedridden for so long. She's since been discharged to a rehab facility to try to get her walking again. I think she'll do okay if she doesn't tell the therapist to buzz off.

And now we're back full circle to the Columbus vs. Missouri thing, and possibly/probably moving back down there in March. But I'll save that for another post. Night all.

current mood: thoughtful

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Tuesday, September 25th, 2007
9:42 am - wow.. 10 weeks
..since my last update.
Well, as many of you know, I'm back in Columbus.
My assignment here ends at the end of October but I'm extending through November.
The gal will hopefully have an on-staff full time gig here shortly. It is looking very likely that we may be settling here permanently.

I received some exquisite news yesterday:
I am pre-approved for a mortgage. A rather big one. Finally, I can join the ranks of home ownership and start putting my money into something I (hopefully) can one day get it back out of. Any words of advice on house shopping?

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Friday, July 13th, 2007
1:22 am - Interpol July 25th
Anyone wanna go with?

CD101 Presents Interpol
Lifestyle Communities Pavilion
Wednesday July 25, 2007; Gates open at 6:30 PM
$25.00 Advance / $28.00 Day of show
General Admission - All Ages
This show is outdoors!
Opening Artist: Calla

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Wednesday, July 11th, 2007
1:52 pm - actual gossamer news
I'm back in Columbus for a few months, and I've just re-recorded vocals for "This is What Forever Is" with our guitarist Jim Dinan. I'm not sure if he uploaded a rough demo of it previously, but he's working on guitars and mixdown of a new version currently.

I'm also collaborating with original gossamer guitarist Gary Thrasher while I'm back in town, so we'll see if something new and noteworthy comes of it. ;)

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Thursday, June 7th, 2007
6:17 pm - HELP! Need computer component buying advice!
I love my current machine, she's served me well, but she's not spiffy enough to run Oblivion (except on the very lowest setting 640x480 and WINDOWED), and Vanguard (not at all).
It's a Crazy Kenny/CCW machine that I had built back in 2003 or 2004 while I was in nursing school. Star Wars Galaxies online had come out that summer(was that '03?), I can't recall the exact specs on the board, but I know it's got an Athlon processor that runs at 1.2 gHz. I can't recall the exact type of RAM either, but I've got 1 GB. The sound is an SBlive value. Video is and NVIDIA GeForce FX 5600 with 256 mb video ram. Back when I got it, it was a great value, I think I got it for around $650(just the tower), with XP as an OS.

I'm going to be buying a new box when I get back to Columbus the first week of July.
Unfortunately, my knowledge of hardware/slots/etc is WAY behind the times. Gary, Rich, whomever, help me out here.

1. BUILDERS: Should I run from CCW? (I know you're gonna say yes, but hey, they build a solid box for a reasonable price)
2. ONLINE: Should I buy at newegg.com?(best prices, but I dunno what to get, and I want someone else to take responsibility for the build and loading the OS)
3. OS: Can I get a box loaded with XP still? I'm not sure I wanna take on Vista this early in the game.
4. RAM: What type is good/best now? I think mine is a pair of DDR 512s, but I forget.
5. VIDEO: What type of slot do you want for your video? AGP used to be the best, now I hear it's EPCI or something else? I know I'm gonna need directX 9.0c compatible, v2.0 pixel/shading compatibility, etc. I think hat means I'll need a 6000 series or better NVIDIA, but I'm not positive.
6. HARD DRIVE: 7200 rpm hard drive, or is there better? I have a 500GB external I just bought, but I'm gonna be loading several space-hog MMOs and RTS on. 40GB is not enough, 80GB is probably ok, but if there's a great value on something larger, fantastic.
7. MOTHERBOARD & PROCESSOR: What's a good motherboard that doesnt have a ton of onboard crap sucking up resources for a decent price? I presume most new ones have USB 2.0 slots.
I hear Intel Duo Core is the way to go now. It's no longer as simple as a straight GHz rating... I'm not sure what I need but Vanguard suggest 3.0 GHz or higher. (I'm guessing that's a single processor).
8. DVD-ROM: I just upgraded the old box with a Sony CRX320AE for 50ish bucks.
anything special here someone recommends? I don't plan to use it much other than for loading games, but /shrug.

SO - here's the big main question/challenge/etc:
I want either a whiz-bang gaming laptop for under $1300, or a great gaming desktop (just the tower, as small as possible without getting into weird boards) for under $900. What components would you get, and where from? As mentioned before, I don't mind spending a little extra for someone else doing the build, loading the OS, and giving me some sort of warranty.

I of course don't need the BEST, but I want VERY GOOD that's gonna last me another 4-5 years.

On a side note, my entire CD collection and MP3s are now sampled down to my 500GB external drive at 256k.


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Monday, May 28th, 2007
12:17 am - A new drinking game...
I'm watching the 2007 Crufts Dog Show (don't ask me why, I have no logical answer).
I've got an idea for a new drinking game.
Take a shot every time the Robyn Leach wannabe announcer uses the word'bitch'. 2 shots if he says 'erect'.

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Tuesday, April 10th, 2007
1:43 pm - GRAYdio
Yeah, Ronnie James Dio is gettin' pretty old, but I'm referring to my new Shoutcast station I'm broadcasting. If you can come up with a better name than GRAYdio, I'm all ears.
And penis.

Hopefully you run winamp, or another mp3 player that supports/has plugins for shoutcast. is the url, you can try doing it in your web browser too.
I'm still working on the playlist and configuring some settings, but it should be up shortly.

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Wednesday, February 21st, 2007
9:17 am - job update
Well, we made it back to Springfield mostly intact, with a whopping 13.5k miles on the RAV(it was only at 6.5k when we left for Ohio around thanksgiving). Good news mostly, after going through interviews with the agency management/nursing director, I'm elegible for rehire. I interviewed for a 13-week position at Cox here in Springfield and got it (yay!). Short version - same area with friends, much nicer pay, furnished apartment(no rent or utilities to worry about) - couldn't ask for much more here.

Everything happens for a reason.

Now, I just have to not screw it up.

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Thursday, February 15th, 2007
2:16 pm - Bend over, insert random large, jagged object.
Remember that big 'whole world is against me' negative attitude I'd get at times? Well, it's back.

1. Fired from my temp cali assignment out here.
(medication error/discrepancy - Pyxis showed the count as one OVER on a narcotic, not under - I likely only gave a patient one pill when they should have received 2). I was approached by pharmacy 3-4 days after the incident supposedly occurred and asked for an explanation.)
2. Gotta take a drug test tomorrow to clear my name, even though the drug count was OVER by 1, not under.
3. 48 hours to get out of the apartment here. (we have nowhere to live or go to)
4. getting shafted with the remainder of the lease, no travel reimbursement, and no cali license fee reimbursement, not to mention the $2,000 credit card tally it took to get out here and take care of bills til the checks started coming in. We're talking thousands of dollars here.
5. in addition, I don't know if they will be taking action on my license, which could screw up future nursing jobs.

The only bright spots in all of this:
1. getting out of this crowded, rude place and horrible hospital system.
2. I spoke with my old boss in Missouri a short bit ago, and I've still got an open spot there. Stil have to discuss with the lady whether Ohio or somewhere else is preferable. There's better $ to be had in Ohio than at the old job.

Happy belated Valentine's Day everyone. :P

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Saturday, January 6th, 2007
1:12 pm - *stamps happily* APPLE SLICE LIVES ON!
One of my favorite drinks in high school (late 80's) was Apple Slice, made by Pepsi, of course. We arrived in Sacramento wednesday night after a 3 day drive from Springfield. We went to WalMart out here yesterday. Surprisingly, there are no supercenters here. At any rate, I was giddy to see a soda named 'Manzanita Sol' on the shelf, made by - you guessed it - Pepsi. I have the yum again, yay.

We're both somewhat ill, not surprising considering we were in -1 degree weather in New Mexico, on up to the 60s in southern Cal. Apparently our timing was good as far as driving, they had just reopened 40. However, there were no hotels with vacancy *anywhere* along 40 in New Mexico. We ended up staying in an emergency Red Cross shelter Monday night for about 3 hours in the subzero temperatures. This was after about 14 hrs of driving. We were given warm drinks and snacks and provided cots to nap on. They were in the process of closing the shelter between 6 and 7am, declaring the emergency over, regardless of our need to sleep. So, on we went. Fortunately they had pet carriers, and the cat had a warm and safe place to rest for a few hours as well. Tuesday evening we decided to end the day early and stopped at a Best Western in Barstow. It had a vurry nice jacuzzi tub and a king sized bed. It was pricier than average, but well worth it, especially considering our prior 2 day ordeal. Wednesday we crashed at a super8 here in Sacramento. Thursday was a bit stressful, as the nursing agency hadn't sent the payment to the apartment management company fast enough, they had 2-dayed it 2 days prior. They refused to give us keys until payment was received. Both the agency and apartment managers were angrily pointing fingers at one another. We didn't care, we just wanted keys. So after a yummy lunch at a filipino/asian restaurant close by, we went back and payment had been received. Yay. The apartment is nice, covered assigned parking spot, bay windows, wood-burning fireplace, vaulted ceiling, big bathroom, dishwasher, washer/dryer in the apartment, ceiling fan. The walls are a nice stucco texture, no plain white walls here. The view is very nice too, we have a lake/pond situation with fountains and ducks outside of our balcony. The ducks are very tame, a half dozen will walk up to you as if they are expecting you to feed them. Pics are forthcoming. The rental furniture is decent, the couch and chair are big, comfy, and nice looking. The wood furniture is obviously used with worn edges, but it's functional for 3 months.
Yesterday I ordered a 20" lcd monitor at walmart.com, as I left my 19" crt monstrosity with mom and dad in cowtown. The lcd should travel much better. We still need a TV, we'll probably break down and buy a projector tv like the InFocus IN72 once the first pay hits, which will also be quitev travel-friendly.

New Years was a great time. We miss all of our family and friends in Springfield, Columbus, and elsewhere. It's been a great month-and-a-half-off. Time to go back to work.

current mood: tired

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Tuesday, December 19th, 2006
1:48 pm - Here's what's up...
I've been back in Columbus for..well, just over 3 weeks. It's been good being here with family and friends. If I've missed any of you, you've got about a week to arrange an appointment. That means you, Gary. ;) Jim, if ya want vocals, now's the time.

The fiancee' got to see some of the Columbus sights. Vic Village, German Village, downtown. We got to eat/drink at some of my favorite places: Barley's, Schmidt's, El Vaquero, among many others. She got to check out Outland a couple of times.

Went to see Eragon with her a couple of days ago. It was 'ok.' Good eye candy. I *might* pick it up if I were to ever see it in a bargain bin. Think one part "Knight's Tale" and two parts "DragonHeart", while borrowing every cliche in the book from every fantasy flick to come out in 30 years, as well as the Dragonriders of Pern series of books. Anne McCaffrey needs to sue. Ok - if you're going to go riding your dragon into battle, and you've got this spiffy thick mail shirt, why the hell are you wearing thin silky pants with mail? How does this play into martial protection? It certainly wasn't for the fashion.
Another glaring inconsistency: The dragon armor they show as being custom forged for Saphire looks NOTHING like what she actual wears and rides into battle.

On the professional front, I got ACLS certed last week (yay!). A lot of travel assignments require it. I was offered a travel job in West Hills, CA but turned it down. I ended up accepting one in Sacramento(more $, less hassle getting to/from the board to get my license). I haven't worked FT days, ever. Same 12 hr deal 3 days a week 7a-7p. Hope I can keep up. In addition, I don't think they have a laboratory or respiratory department, so I'll be doing my own breathing treatments and lab draws. I've never had to draw labs, and never was schooled in phlebotomy, but I can start IVs about 50% of the time. Looks like I'll have to up my batting average. Ah well. It all falls under the "improving career skills" category. Med-Surg/Tele/Cardiac is where I'll be, which is what I know.

Anyway, Itinerary, and Thinking Out Loud(tm):
Dec 25th - meet the Jbear at the airport
Dec 26th - off to the gal's mom's down in Knoxville, TN
Dec 28th - back to Springfield to crash with friends and celebrate New Year's, may pick up a shift or 2 at the hospital.
It gets grey in here. My first official day is Monday Jan 8th, but I have to have my paperwork/license in to the facility on Friday the 5th. This means I need to be *in* Sacramento doing the running around on Thursday the 4th. As I'd like to do it on a full night's sleep, getting in on the evening of Wednesday the 3rd would be ideal. It's about 1900 miles/30ish hours of driving, allowing a few hours for stops/weather/etc. Planning it as a 3 day drive of about 10 hrs per day would give us some leeway to stop and catch a few sights. The gal wants to stop and see the Grand Canyon, and I wouldn't mind a little Vegas detour. That means we'd need to leave New Year's Day.

Oya. Time to finish Christmas shopping.

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Thursday, November 23rd, 2006
8:22 pm - It's official... the results are in...
The cat weighs in at 17.4 lbs. We won't go into my post-feastx2 weight.

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Saturday, November 18th, 2006
7:45 am - top 10 reasons to ban gay marriage
Generally I don't pass on/repost this sort of thing, but being in Springfield, MO I've seen more than a few "marriage = man + woman" bumper stickers, and I really couldn't have summed it up better myself than below:

1) Being gay is NOT natural. Real Americans always reject unnatural things like eyeglasses, polyester, and air conditioning.

2) Gay marriage will encourage people to be gay, in the same way that hanging around tall people will make you tall.

3) Gay marriage will change the foundation of society; we could never adapt to new social norms. Just like we haven't adapted to cars, the service-sector economy, or longer life spans.

4) Straight marriage has been around a long time and hasn't changed at all; women are still property, blacks still can't marry whites, and divorce is still illegal.

5) Straight marriage would be less meaningful if gay marriage were allowed; the sanctity of Britney Spears' 55-hour just-for-fun marriage would be destroyed.

6) Straight marriages are valid because they produce children. Gay couples, infertile couples, and old people shouldn't be allowed to marry because our orphanages aren't full yet, and the world needs more children.

7) Obviously gay parents will raise gay children, since straight parents only raise straight children.

8) Gay marriage is not supported by religion. In a theocracy like ours, the values of one religion are imposed on the entire country. That's why we have only one religion in America.

9) Children can never succeed without a male and a female role model at home. That's why we as a society expressly forbid single parents to raise children.

10) Legalizing gay marriage will open the door to all kinds of crazy behavior. People may even wish to marry their pets because a dog has legal standing and can sign a marriage contract.

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Tuesday, October 31st, 2006
10:51 am - g33k toyz!

I covet.

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Tuesday, October 17th, 2006
1:45 pm - Ohio nursing...
Yet again, snags when it comes to travel nursing. Coming home will be problematic. Apparently, any OHA member hospital (OSU, etc) requires 2 years of RN experience to come in as a traveler. &^%#&^#&^#&#^%$^!!!. I can work as hired, full on staff wherever/whenever/however the heck I want, but not as a traveler. WTF. I have really been regretting my career choice as of late. Seems I get fucked in the ass with a splintered stick at every turn. We'll see what turns up. /sigh. Perhaps I'll only be in town for a few weeks then, and off to the west coast sooner rather than later.

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Wednesday, October 11th, 2006
6:22 pm - Thought for the day:
An apology without an attempt at changing said behavior wasn't really an apology to begin with.

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